I must note that I wrote this post a few weeks ago- you know, right after Mother’s Day. Unfortunately things have been a bit hectic over here so it’s been on the back burner until today. I have a fabulous recipe in store for you, but I came down with the flu today and it just couldn’t happen. Please tell me how to manage a high fever and a 4 month old that likes to see new things every couple of minutes! Anyway- I’ll be back next week with loads to share, (assuming I get well soon!)
I have about 5 posts stored away for you. The only problem is that they are in my head, filed away behind the pile of sleepless mush that is my ability to be organized and on top of things. Sleep deprivation is no joke. For the first 3 months of my journey as a Mama I kinda felt like I was superwoman, totally able to function on barely any sleep and perky and energetic even with 5 hours of dis-jointed getting-up-every-hour rest. Well, things have changed my friends. It turns out that there are limits to how long we can run on empty and I hit a bit of a wall last week. I had my first “Mommy meltdown” and found myself crying to Hugo while he just smiled and laughed at my face. :)
I got to a point where I felt like I could no longer function without catching up a bit on sleep, and luckily that coincided perfectly with my Mom’s visit to New York for Mother’s Day. She allowed me to rest a bit in the mornings, and it has made all the difference. Plus we got to spend Mother’s Day together which was so special. Nothing has made me appreciate my Mom quite like becoming one myself. I love sweet Hugo and our time together more than anything, but motherhood is challenging, and that lady did it 5 times. (I also gained a huge amount of respect and appreciation for my Mother-in-Law who raised 5 kids as well!) Warrior Mamas all of them.
Anyway, where I was originally devastated at Hugo’s sudden decision to stop sleeping for more than an hour at a time, it seems like after a week or so I accept and expect it, which makes it a lot easier. He even gave us a night 3 hour stretch last night which felt amazing!!
I spend so much of my time reading books on baby sleep, searching for articles online, and asking every Mama I know what worked for them. My new plan is to forget it all and just take it one day at a time. I know we’ll both sleep eventually, but I’ve been driving myself mad trying to figure out the best “plan” and have been beating myself up for all the “mistakes” I’ve made already. (Sorry but my “sleepy not asleep” has never worked too well around here.)
My heart is so full of love that I could just burst, and I can’t believe that Hugo is already 4 months old. I need a constant reminder to slow down and cherish each little moment with him. I’ve had to forgo the dishes and making the bed and sometimes even taking a shower to just sit there and enjoy him- I know I will miss this. He changes so much every day and I can’t risk blinking while something sweet happens right before my eyes. :)
PS- Amongst the future baby related posts I have planned are my “Essentials” for the first few weeks of Breastfeeding, as well as my personal Baby Registry Essentials. Stay tuned!
Pictures courtesy of my talented sis Nadia Quinn